THEury

The things that I put myself through for the convenience of others has become shameful. And my terrible habit of not being able to say “no” has taken me places I never wanted to be.

Why is it okay for a man to be a father but barely take place in his childs life and its something we’ve become okay with? Once he’s seen pushing a stroller in the park or spending time, he’s a “good father”. But a mother being there for her child is expected. And seeing her push that same child in the same stroller 6 days a week is something that we pay no attention to.

You know youve been hurt so badly in the past when you find out you were cheated on and lied to soooo long ago that it doesnt even phase you.

A lost girl Trying to find her way Back to herself But she’s slowly fading The bright future she once saw Is now shattered with reality Now she can only live And think for the moment Everything she desired Is becoming less tangible Everyday is a constant struggle For her to believe in herself Seeing so many flaws and Imperfections Not knowing which direction to turn She stands still Waiting

You Lied

Told me the only tears I would ever cry

Would be from joy

But you were the only one who ever hurt me enough to bring them.

Passion

Everyday I give a piece of myself to others. Sometimes, more than often theyre complete strangers.Physically drained at the end of each day I look back at my work with pride. Knowing I made a difference in someone’s day, confidence, and or self esteem. Sharing my passion with people who are willing to allow me to express myself is greatly appreciated. And in return I take great pride in what I do. Seeing that smile on their face makes my day every single time.

Never lose sight of what makes you happy.

Gave you all of me

Let you inside to do whatever you pleased

Lies were told in the process of getting what u wanted

As I went along with it

Allowing u to think it was a great chase

The time came for you to walk all over me

And I allowed it

Tattooed your name on my insides

Leaving traces of yourself behind

Let you stay longer than u asked

And told u to come and go as freely as you wanted.

It was ok because I wanted to feel wanted

I liked to be wanted

I felt needed

Needed to be loved

But ended up being used.

So I played your little game

Put up a front like I wasn’t hurt

Pretended I wast expecting this all along.

Of course I’ve been hurt before

Deeper than you can imagine

Practically left for dead and nobody to come to my rescue.

So I gave up a long time ago on that love thing.

You showed up and gave me hope

Treated me like a queen and gave me a reason to smile

Let me know it was okay to laugh from time to time

So I was convinced.

But you were on a mission

And I was just another check on your list.

No different from the rest,

I tried to think you could never do this to me.

I couldn’t possibly be this stupid

So irresponsible of me to lay it all on the line.

Once again my body spoke louder than my mind

I couldn’t hear a thing

Over the sound of our clothes being ripped off

The kissing and the moaning.

The breathing and the sucking.

I wanted to stop.

I knew that I needed to stop.

But he told me not to stop.

So I listened

Because I’m not strong enough to make my own decisions.

But I knew I made him wait too long

So now all I have is this emptiness.

Searching for whats missing isnt easy

But I’ll be damned if look for it in another man.

“At times you see people in ways you shouldn’t portray em’ Because they not living up to the title you shouldn’t of gave em’.”